Emily’s Journey: Falling Off the Wagon

The holiday season has come and gone.  During the holidays I, like many others, was less than prudent in my food choices.  But, like so many others, I did so with every intention of getting right back into the swing of things.  However, my holiday “break” was so bad I haven’t weighed myself since shortly after returning home from the Christmas holiday. 

I can honestly say I not only fell completely off the healthy lifestyle wagon, but gleefully jumped off, head first, and smashed into a raging torrent of calorie filled excess.  Binge eating on some of the unhealthiest food I could lay my hands on.  Even weeks later, I’m still struggling to claw my way back into the groove.

The time I spent on my “break” and the following weeks of struggle reiterated a few things I conveniently forgot about myself and my health goals.  Things I can’t afford to forget again.  Left to my own devices I can, and will, overeat…a lot, so even after I reach my ultimate goal maintaining it will be an ongoing challenge.  Weight loss is a long term commitment.

Now, the weeks have passed, and today was the first day I’ve been able to say that I was intentionally under my daily calorie goal and second day of reaching my water intake goal.  I’m determined to continue tomorrow, and the day after, and the next, and the next…

The next few weeks won’t be easy.  My relationship with food never is.  Food is my drug of choice and it’s time to get my recovery back on track.  Today is my first day.  My day one of working towards maintaining a healthy lifestyle, so it’s time to stop procrastinating, yank up my big girl panties, and get back to work!  This journey won’t get any easier, and the closer I get to my goal the harder it will be to maintain my discipline and commitment.

My biggest goal for the week will be will be one I’m dreading, but for good or ill, I WILL get on the scale this Saturday.

Author: emilyofmysfamcottage

I'm a weird, wandering, book-loving writer who shares a home with her soul sister, two crazy cats, and an even crazier dog. Sometimes I write about made-up worlds and sometimes I write about my insane life. Every now and then I'll go take photographs.